Tree Fitz's blog

 I want to explicate to this team a little more of the thinking I used to hold the money for ES3.  We did not do some of the work that I believe is essential to the money piece of this kind of work.  We should have had long conversations about the money up front.  Each person should have struggled in this putatively conscious collective to really, really understand what it is they would like to be paid for doing this work.  We should have worked together, throughout the process, to affirm that each of us would be paid something, that building an event or a movement on unpaid labor is old-paradigm thinking that does not serve human evolution.  We should have been almost like a t-group where the money is concerned, holding it very consciously throughout our work together.  read more »

If it would help the ES3 organizers resolve the money, we can deduct the cost of my iPod from my bill for services.  I'd also be willing to return it.  It doesn't feel good to me anymore.

I will miss the rhythym of our weekly planning meetings, miss having the focus of a transformative event like an evo salon secure in my future.

 We are going to talk about what to do with the money tomorrow.  How shall we pay ourselves?

 

Ria, I am grateful for your careful attention to this website.  Thank you.

 Here are thoughts I am sitting with today, more or less in reaction to the May salon:

I am going to try to blog here a little bit.

When I got on this website a few minutes ago, there was one other person logged in and no one else online.  Now there are, according to the left hand column, 265 people.  Who are they?  How did they happen to arrive?  Fascinating to me. 

I wonder if anyone will read this.  I keep coming to this site and I can never seem to find living conversational threads. . . and yet I keep hearing 'buzz' that this is a very active site. . . .

 I have been working hard to prepare for ES3 but for the past several days, I have not done much because I am finding myself feeling increasingly paralyzed.  I keep thinking of the old comedy routine 'what's on first and who's on second'. . . over and over, I think I hear agreements being made within the planning team and then over and over, the agreements are ignored.  Here I am spending some of my valuable life force trying to honor the agreements and make decisions on behalf of the whole within the context of those agreement . . . and then it starts to feel like I imagined all the work that took place to get to agreements that are subsequently ignored.  If a tree falls in the forest and no one hears it, does it make a sound?  read more »