Learning from/with Finn's beloved "magic in the middle"

From Muryah:

Martin,

Thank you for the update and declaring what I am experiencing.  I feel an allegiance to what I have learned from Finn and all of us about consciousness of the field.  And last night I developed my own little meditative ritual for letting go from the perspective of all of my senses and it was and is very effective.  The circumstances are challenging but it does seem to me that something has been ignited in me/us and it is meaningful.

Regards,

More words came from Martin E.: 

Hi George

From (another) Martin E. to George: 

"I am in awe to see the transformations that are happening around Finn, and the perspective of freedom that is surrounding him and inhabiting those of us in the immediate physical vicinity of him. I was struck when I read that you see transformations too these days."

Tina wrote back to George and Ria: 

I will try and write a little more, I am not so clear but I think you
should know something about the things that are happening here and with me.

I know that whatever happens with Finn we are many to carry on, to keep
and to inquire into the potential that this is offering, and that is a
relieve. I feel that it is far bigger than I can understand and
communicate and a field of C.I. is needed in a way that has never been
more concrete to me than now. I literally feel the field; it's many
qualities; the souls with each their qualities; the bodies that carry
the souls with each their tools to tune in and percept what is happening.
It feels as if a wound that has been in a healing process for years and
became clear to me on moving the edge is becoming transparent to me. I
feel I get to see into the many aspects of being a human being. It is as
if Finn is becoming a human being in the sense: all that is - it is being
taken to another level, is becoming a whole. The body, emotions, soul,
thought and consciousness, it is all one and the same thing.

Still Finns condition is very critical. ...

I am exhuasted physically by now but still I have the sense of knowing and
of clarity. Many people in Finns network, ..... call me or come to partly check me out - worried of my youth and judgement, partly to offer different kinds of help and advices for the process.

....

I feel I have this transparancy towards what is truly felt by these wise
and very conscious persons. I also see that the mental scheme, their
interpretation of the situation is put into a limiting structure. I feel
this urge to stay in the not knowing, to give into the deep knowing that
is offered in each moment. I feel that this IS the richest learning
process, and I feel I know what I need to know moment by moment.
I think that what Finn has been doing the last many years has been to take
from all the wise people and philosopies he has ever met, read or felt,
and tried to create structures in the manifest worlds and among social
systems, so that the guru can be the middle. I feel that what some of
these people have come to try to explain me, holds a lot of truth but that
Finn has taken it to another level in the spiral.

I write you this because I think you will understand and maybe can get
something from it or remind me later. To some of us it makes sense to be
students of a guru in person and to interpret our experiences in a certain
context of understanding and even when the context is the biggest we
now know of so much meaningmaking, allreadyknowing and ownership can sneak
in on us. I know it is Finns vision to create fields
where people with a counsciouness perspective can develop the language,
the process formats, the action and the being, that holds the truth in each
moment and is evolutionary. I know he is working in the field and in the
manifest with this perspective and I know that to some it can seem like a
run-away from deepening, but actually I feel in the years he and I have
been together that he is coming from the dept in this running right into
the world of the manifest, and has dared to let himself be guided by a
sense of either clarity or unclarity in the middle. I think we could say
that Finn's teacher is the middle.

So what I also sit with in these days is a feeling of clarity and the
ability to distinguish between interpretations and ideas and what is here
now. I notice that I take many chances, that I will not compromise and
that my teacher is a deep felt sense from the middle of all the people
that are keeping us.

....

Thank you for your friendship. I love you.

Tina

Tina wrote to George:

.....
I will share with you something that I sense is taking place. It is still
vague, confusing and not yet that nuanced, but I hope to find more words
and accurate expressions as I grow with this process and as I get to share.

I feel there is something extraordinary important to learn from this about
being a field of collective intelligence and from the perspective of one
being. David wrote to me in a mail earlier about my role; that he felt
something was transferred to him. I too feel that something is transferred
to me in these days.

David wrote: "I sense some of this Life energy is moving into the body and
some of it is being used to work at other levels of Finn's being and world.
I can't say definitively what he is working on, though I sense part
of it is arranging to share or transfer what he has been holding
relative to the collective intelligence work.  This is not to say he
is letting go of this aspect of his field of service, but to allow
others to hold it, while he focuses more particularly in the cycle he
is in now.  I mention this because I have a sense that some of that
substance he has been holding and focusing relative to C.I. has come
to me.  I suspect it is being offered to others as well."

I have had this growing sense that some of the qualities that I know he
has sprout in me as an easy or natural process during the last days. I
notice that I am uncompromising, direct and clear and that I have taken
leadership in confrontations and organizing without
doubting my own intentions and without feeling attached to it. There is
something very delicate about it and it is more an energetic motion than
anything. It does not feel like there is anything personal about it.

It makes sense that I will be in a hightened state of a awareness or
consciousness during this process and I write you so more know, should I
not remember or my connection fade. I am also aware that I, due to the
character of Finn's and my relationship as partners in life, I can mix
things and interpretations up. I trust you will find your way in what I am
writing as I am in a state of not knowing most of the time.

There is more but it has not words yet. It has to do with the lonelyness
and longing I sometimes hear Finn express regarding his work and
initiaves.

It makes sense to me that some of the qualities or functions in and for
the collective that I know Finn often holds and channels, is now offered to
more people to carry and channel in a deeper way, since Finn needs peace
to do another work.
The people that I called for this specific work I feel makes a wholeness
itself within the whole. We are all very attentioned about what is
happening in us as the days go by and the intensity grows. It is
especially taking place between the field of Martin E., David and I and a
woman named Karoline that has an energetic and physically approach to
this.

Dear George, I know a dear friend and colleague of you is balancing between
life and death. I know you share vision and I know that you have both put
your lifes in service of the work.

I do not know if what I am sensing has to do with that I am as close to
the center of the process as I can get and project it on the world. But my
sense is that something bigger is happening in the community that Finn and
I are a part of, and it is not fearful but beautiful.


Love and light Tina

Tina (Finn's partner) wrote:

"Dear all
I am deeply gratefull for the love and support that is carrying Finn and
us who are close around him in these days. I feel that Finn and we are
being held by a field of love. I have told him this many times, I have
told him that he is loved by all of us for what he is and that he is free
to do what he must do.

Being close to him all the time is extremely powerfull - it feels like
being drawn into an instant meditating condition. I feel peace when being
with him most of the time, feel that he is radiant, strong and powerful,
feel that he is fighting for something bigger than this body.

.....

Friday night I picked Finn up in the airport as he returned from Canada. I
felt that - though very I'll - he was transformed, changed, soulfull and
beautiful. I told him that he looked newborn. He felled at the same time
very physically vulnerable, released and was deeply touched by the
insights that kept coming to him. He was very touched by the love and care
that those of you who were there showed him.  ....

One insight was that he knew he always have had a great love for humanity.
He said he now understood that he is a part of humanity.

Finn told me at the hospital on our second night, when we understood that
this was very serious, that he saw this proces as a soulwork and that
something was not free. He said he knew his heart was free, but that he
was not free mentally and physically.
He told me he want to live.
He said that he would now set free what was not free. He asked me to let
go of what was not free between us. He asked me to tell those who would
help us through this, to do the same.
To me that means to set Finn free to do what he now must do. And it means
to love him so much that I will help him and support him on his way also
if he is leaving.
To love whatever is and to let everything be as it is.

His condition is very critical still tonight. ....

I feel at this time a deep understanding of wholeness, that our meditation
is for the whole. I feel that the work Finn is doing, makes so much sense.
A part of me is painfully sad about that he suffers. A part of me fears
that I will loose him. But most of the time I feel that I have been given
the greatest gift that I could imagine. I feel that I - and many, many other
people tell me as well - am waking up to that a larger perspective on life. It
is not an idea or an experience, it is something that we live.

... I understand,... that Finn is a great inspiration to so many people. I know that Finn has spend most of his life working on supporting conscious social systems to come into being and to develop. I know he truly holds a perspective that is larger than himself.
I see that now when Finn is completely depended on other people he helps catalyzing so much love, so much setting free and that networks of people come into being.

....
 

George wrote to Martin L., who sent the first email out: 

Finn’s love of consciousness shines through your message so strongly that even the bad news re-ignited the inspiration that Finn has always been for me. Last time, just a week ago, on Bowen Island, when his body was already engaged in the battle between his illness and healing forces,  he was so amazingly present to both what was happening inside him, and in our circle!  We felt his pain and felt honored by his gift of presence, when he sat with us and spoke, each time, from a space of deep, undisturbed wisdom and caring for the Whole.

...

It brings tears to my eyes, tears of gratitude to him for being such a role model in the most challenging circumstances. May I and we all stand as solidly in our commitment to love and consciousness when we are tested, as Finn does!

...

Chris Corrigan wrote: